Jonaz

My new Livejournal Address

Sun, 05 May 2002 22:08:49 GMT

I'm feeling much better with this refreshening new livejournal, which is known as "Out Of Blue". it s pretty cool, especially the lay out, ha.

Help yourself by snooping in..

Farewell, cutesmirk.

Livejournal..

Sun, 05 May 2002 02:33:17 GMT

Everyone, i'm out to another Livejournal, lol.. actually i got another livejournal username since i didnt verify this username, so i couldnt post up comments and all. I got sick of it, so i'm going to enjoy posting up comments on my new journal. Shall post up one more entry about the new address.

Thanks.

Fri, 03 May 2002 20:11:31 GMT

To whoever stole my backpack..

It seemed like a fun yesterday when i thought u pulled on some pranks.

It isnt funny anymore..

And you are still doing it..

Too late, you crossed the line.

I'm pissed.

Fri, 03 May 2002 20:08:41 GMT

I'm at home, obviously. Pager is still missing, i mean the backpack. I dont think i'd care as much if i had pager with me and the backpack was missing. I'm royally pissed.

I swear, if i happen to find out who. The person s dead, he/she s going to suffer a sweet revenge.

Geez, am i rubbing it in? ugh

Am i making it worst? ugh

Fuck everything, i am making things worst.

Like it matters since today is already a worst day for me.

Corner to Corner, ugh...

Fri, 03 May 2002 15:57:34 GMT

I searched my backpack everywhere yesterday and today, from corner to corner, shelves to the ending of the shelves. From the hall to the ending of the hall..

No sign of my backpack...

who in the world would have done this..

Fallon, i'm watching...

So watchout, girl..

::unhelpful smirk::

Furiously Pissed.

Fri, 03 May 2002 15:54:06 GMT

At the upcoming 1:15 in the afternoon, my backpack (including the pager) shall be missing for fucking Twenty-Four hours. Last night at home without pager drove me insane..

Furiously pissed, give me the belongings.

::chuckles:: Like i'll be..

Fri, 03 May 2002 02:51:20 GMT

Auto response from LightinXParaDise [10:04 PM]: i'm cooking myself a dinner however knowing that my pager s gone drives me crazy ::pulls my hair::
Louvenia8 [10:05 PM]: isid
Louvenia8 [10:18 PM]: haahwhoaa.. why dont u try to im him/her on ur pager
Louvenia8 [10:18 PM]: and see who has it
Louvenia8 [10:18 PM]: well only if she/he replies
Louvenia8 [10:18 PM]: hahahah
Louvenia8 [10:18 PM]: well only if she/he replies
Louvenia8 [10:18 PM]: hahahah
Louvenia8 [10:18 PM]: sowwy abt that, really
LightinXParaDise [10:20 PM]: it s okay really.. i know i'll find it.. but somehow i'm feeling that the seniors s having my pager in their pockets!!
Louvenia8 [10:22 PM]: ahh
Louvenia8 [10:22 PM]: at least u dont have limited characters or smething like that
Louvenia8 [10:22 PM]: just hope they dont steal ur pager
LightinXParaDise [10:23 PM]: yeahh.. at least i changed my password recently.. he/she got disconnected. so that s good.
Louvenia8 [10:26 PM]: ahahah
Louvenia8 [10:26 PM]: smart move!
LightinXParaDise [10:26 PM]: ::laughs:: probably so, but it wasnt smart when i had my backpack at this prohibited area, pfft,.
Louvenia8 [10:28 PM]: haha frosh :) seniors alert ;) ahh who else has his/her backpack missing?
LightinXParaDise [10:28 PM]: serious.. u have my backpack? ::stares:: you are SO dead.
LightinXParaDise [10:28 PM]: ursa s backpack wasnt exactly missing but she found it in a trash.
Louvenia8 [10:31 PM]: yeah it was placed at a diff place
LightinXParaDise [10:31 PM]: bitCh.. at least, i ll be kissing u cuz i dont get to do my hwks :-D
Louvenia8 [10:31 PM]: nah read carefully ;)
LightinXParaDise [10:32 PM]: uhhhh?
LightinXParaDise [10:32 PM]: oh.. it doesnt mean that u were the one who did it? ahh.
Louvenia8 [10:32 PM]: i m completely innocen
Louvenia8 [10:32 PM]: t
Louvenia8 [10:32 PM]: haha grins
Louvenia8 [10:32 PM]: ure so clueless
Louvenia8 [10:32 PM]: thats cute
LightinXParaDise [10:32 PM]: bitch..
LightinXParaDise [10:33 PM]: at least now i know that my backpack n pager s safe :-D unless u did something to it, so did u? AH!
Louvenia8 [10:35 PM]: ah im helping u here
LightinXParaDise [10:35 PM]: uh uh are u? pfft.. u can help me by telling me where it is placed safely :-D
LightinXParaDise [10:36 PM]: i mean.. i wasted 2 hrs searching for it.. geez.. seniors are SO DEAD!
Louvenia8 [10:45 PM]: i have no clue where it is :)
Auto response from LightinXParaDise [10:45 PM]: Enjoying the poop orgasms.
Louvenia8 [10:45 PM]: ahh 2hrs?
Louvenia8 [10:45 PM]: i feel u *smirks*
LightinXParaDise [10:47 PM]: ughhh bitch.. u r confusing me.. dammit i hate seniors, period.
LightinXParaDise [10:51 PM]: Sheesh.. i need my backpack back. i'll be a good boy ::chuckles::like i'll be..

Wed, 24 Apr 2002 02:15:21 GMT

It s so strange... it s probably weird.. but it s hard.

I'm actually leaving my childhood house. I cannot believe this. PRobably it s the brevity of a illusion that i ve got to face, uh? this s stupid, i know. But in the other good words, i am going to live in frederick, the town that most of my friends live in. I'll miss the montgomery county kids. if any of you happen to check this, i love you all.

Farewell 7008 Palamar Turn Seabrook MD 20706 ::turns aside; smiles cheerfully:: 2622 Cameron Way Frederick MD 21701 awaits me...

Mon, 22 Apr 2002 01:12:17 GMT

Well.. Lot of things happened ever since my last entry.. God.. damn this world, this.. ugh i nearly had my last breath... it s complicated. Well if it wasnt for Lari and Laura.. i dont think i'd be typing this entry.

Maybe i am exaggerating?

But it s the way i am feeling.. ah i hate being down..

Being a Teenager s the toughest stage to go through or to be in..

Pearl Harbor..

Sun, 21 Apr 2002 20:18:35 GMT

AH.. this song was also a song that i sang to tabitha on a special occasion, but when? ha i dont remember, lol.. anyway.. you guys must think i'm a dork but.. i got this song from Pearl Harbor's videotape.. i rewinded it constantly just to rewrite the song on the paper since it was in closed captions, it s so impossible to get them all at once u know.. so it took me 45 mins just to write this, well it was sure worth.. all i know is.. i dont think i'm a dork for doing this since the song was perfectly defined of how i feel about her :)

When I think back on these times

And the dreams we left behind

I’ll be glad cause I was blessed

To get to have you in my life

When I look back on these days

I’ll look and see your face

You were right there for me

In my dreams I’ll always see you

Soar above the sky

In my heart, there will always be a place for you

For all my life

I’ll keep a part of you with me

And everywhere I am

There you’ll be

And everywhere I am

There you’ll be

Well, you showed me how it feels

To feel the sky within my reach

And I always will remember

All the strength you gave to me

Your love made me make it through

Oh, I owe so much to you

You were right there for me

In my dreams I’ll always see you

Soar above the sky

In my heart there’ll always be

A place for you

For all my life

I’ll keep a part of you with me

And everywhere I am

There you’ll be

Cause I always saw

In you my light

My strength

And I want to thank you now

All the ways

Everywhere I am

There you’ll be

Every where I am

There you’ll be

There you’ll be

There you’ll be….

Cant Say..

Sun, 21 Apr 2002 20:11:16 GMT

This was the song i sang to tabitha on her birthday, October 26.. i was surfing on the saved entries i had made in Microsoft Word, and found this..

I cant say why I love you, but I do Yes I do

When I’m around you it feels so good, feels so good

And everything that I can do every wish I make for you

In the end it all came true and I

I can’t say why I love you, can’t say, cant say but I do

I can’t say why I love you, can’t say, cant say but I do

I cant say why I love you

Baby when I found you I just knew, I just knew that I

Couldn’t live without you

Feel it too, do you feel it too

Everything you give to me feels as though it’s meant to be

If you ever ask me how I feel

I cant say why I love you, can’t say but I do

I can’t say why I love you, can’t say but I do

I can’t say why l love you

Now I’m thinking of you when I cant explain the feeling

But I know that it’s real when I hold you

When I saw you, you know, I knew

I knew I couldn’t live without

Without you ever in my life

Everything you give to me feels as though it’s meant to be

So if you ever asked me how I feel

I can’t say why I love you, can’t say, can’t say but I do

I can’t say why I love you, can’t say, can’t say but I do. Yes babe but I do

I can’t say why I love you, can’t say, can’t say but I do. Yes babe but I do, just come on babe

I can’t say why I love you, can’t say, can’t say but I do. Yes babe but I do, just come on babe

I can’t say why I love you, can’t say, can’t say but I do. Yes babe but I do, just come on babe

Cant say... ::fades::

SHIT!

Sun, 21 Apr 2002 19:20:49 GMT

Remember he is only a third grader.. it was what he had sent my mom..

MAybe the grammar isnt what you guys expected, but for a 3rd grader, come on..

Dear Aunt Jenni,

Let me tell you that I got my Parvuli Dei (Children of God) Emblem yesterday. It is something that tells you that you are closer to God than you've ever felt. It is a Cub Scout medal that is presented to everybody ( Catholic Scouts) that wants to receive it and they strive and usually they get it. But the hard thing is, if you don't try to get it you won't. You have to do almost everything you can to receive it. In our Parvuli Dei workbook, it has aaa lllloooooootttttt of stuff in it about religion, activities, do-by-yourself things and nature stuff. But the main subject is religion. I got it at Mass and it has a rectangle with "Parvuli Dei" at the top of the medal and a diamond shape attached with the picture of the Holy Family (Jesus, Mary and Joseph) and the Holy Spirit in the form of a dove.

P.S. I lost my ninth tooth on the April 19.

Love, Spencer

Holy sHit!!

Sun, 21 Apr 2002 19:13:46 GMT

My Cousin, Spencer..

He is only third grader. He is 8 years old.

We all had suspected something fishy going on with him. He was always hyper, active, impossibility of staying put within a min or two. We all were determined that he had ADHD or some kind of attention disorder.

We were DEAD WRONG!

He was on lot of tests and all.. He is GIFTED!

He is gifted, he has been acting like this because everything is bored to him and he is able of doing 10th grade classwork, holy shit. And his english grammar is in 7th grade.. while his reading level is PHS.. above 12th grade level.

Which is higher than mine ::cringe::

He is so gifted. Only 8 years old.

Sun, 21 Apr 2002 18:36:04 GMT

The pain i am having right now is just like waves coming in and go.

Pain constantly throbs.

April 20.. birthday, my brother..

Sun, 21 Apr 2002 00:43:52 GMT

Ughh i woke up 730 this morning.. to drive up to frederick for my brothers' flag football game.. it was also brandon's birthday.. So we stopped by mcdonalds to get breakfast.. then we drove all the way to frederick.. and i got there um at like 830 or so.. saw carey.. and other bunches of kids.. i was waiting for di to show up, ha sure enough she did :) then we yakked through the game.. i barely know what happened.. at least i think either brandon or clayton made the touchdown, or they both did? hah.. anyway afterwards we all went to the uhh.. furniture store near dearbrought, i am not sure where exactly.. anyway.. we were planning on looking around for some furnitures since we are moving out to a new house this friday.. we didnt expect this.. it was all of sudden, so fast. We bought 3 sofas and a chair.. i am like.. in love with them ::smiles:: then uhh.. i'm not sure what i did exactly next, lol.. ah whatever.. the day went on blah.. we all shopped :)

Then we ate dinner at the japanese restaurant, Sakura. Brandon selected the restaurant ever since it was his birthday. so we all enjoyed the shrimps and all. Accidentally, we saw Mabashov and the benedicts' at the sakura, lol..

The day went on with mike videotaping.. so when brandon was planning on getting a cake from this japanese lady.. mike passed out the cameracorder.. and i was taping it.. all of those japanese singing happy birthday to him and all that shit..

Then when i gave it back to mom.. she was furiously upset "You didnt turn it on.. oh my god" Ughh.. i thought i did, ugh i'm screwed. Brandon was sorta down.. Ugh i felt SO bad.. but at least he had this chocolate cake to cheer him up, at least i guess.. then we rode back home.. we got here at 8:15..

What a fun 13 hours, at least i think ;)

Sat, 20 Apr 2002 02:49:48 GMT

I'm lost, I feel lost, especially in this world, this planet.

Sat, 20 Apr 2002 02:18:35 GMT

The best feeling in the whole world is to know how good it is to stay dreaming.. where i could stay in my fantasies.. and enjoy them in the ways i want it.. why cant the life be like that? ::rolls eyes:: i dont understand.

Why does crisises and life itself have to be that "SO" cOmpliCated?

Sat, 20 Apr 2002 01:42:03 GMT

You, the High Class Cowardly Bastard Kid..

Shape up..

Drop dead and get a life.

Fri, 19 Apr 2002 19:46:58 GMT

::laughs::

When i got back from the dr.. after posting up an entry, i went straight to bed.. i was tired for no reasons.. then when i woke up.. it was 3:20.. oh! i missed DOOL, lala like i care, lol.. i cld have tabby to explain me what happened.. i dont really care, pfft..

Maybe i do, enough to post this up? ha

Somebody.. if you are checking this.. I'm really sorry, you know who you are..

I feel bad.

Fri, 19 Apr 2002 14:07:06 GMT

Ah i missed school today :-D actually it s a half day.. like i care, ha.. i had to miss due to a doctor s appt. They warned me that they ll take 15 blood tests, i had to scream, i wanted to die because i had to go on this "fasting" not allowed to eat for 8 hours before the blood test. So when i sat on the chair and they snug the needle in my arms, they only took 3 blood tests, pfft.

I'm backkk.. whoo i have this house all to myself.. foods all to myself.. computer all to myself.. tv, sofa :) ::mind flashes:: DOOL! oh yes, that s right :-D i am going to watch DOOL and not the least, PAssions from 1-3 :-D

Ugh i am going to get another livejournal since this one.. i am not able to post a comment with my username, so all along i have been posting up comments using anonymous.. it didnt bother me.. but now, i am not able to post up comments, even though it s anonymous, i'm fed up.. i'll get another user :) i'll just post an entry here to let the people know about the new livejournal addy..

Ah i'll roll and enjoy the rest of the day.

Fri, 19 Apr 2002 01:23:24 GMT

Ha it was ursa's birthday today.. so when i woke up, i knew i had to grab the shaving cream

Sure enough i did.. it was in my pockets when the clock chimed :: 12:30 ::

I sprayed it into my hands and ran onto ursa..

We chased eachother.. the cream was all over ursa s face, including shana since i had some left on my hand and wanted to get it ridded of.

Afterschool, it came..

I started the shaving cream fight.. ended up everybody got involved.. it was really fun.

I was covered in this priscilla's so called woman shaving cream.. Along with my own shaving cream.. it was so sticky especially in the humidity.. i ran to the bathroom with derrick, we washed our face.. then the Supervisor furiously came to me said "Was it you who started the shaving cream fight?"

I nodded as this senior, Robin Shannon.. he was mocking at me behind the supervisor, ugh it was him who notified.. so it s how senior revenges freshman, ah cheap.. anyway the supervisor insists that i cant start any trouble anymore, otherwise i'll be suspended from staying afterschool. Ever since i was the one who started this water balloon fight last week during school..

MSD s really boring..

innocently, i only wanted to live it up..

::shakes head:: 8th grader..

Fri, 19 Apr 2002 00:48:19 GMT

Ha, this annoying 8th grader who claims that she is a professional swimmer when we all know the truth..

She is none near this name-labelling "Pro Swimmer"

ProSwimmer2006 [7:10 PM]: hey what is ur aol pager scn
LightinXParaDise [7:11 PM]: I'm not telling you, smile.
ProSwimmer2006 [7:11 PM]: how come why
LightinXParaDise [7:11 PM]: Cuz the pager was designed for the personal friends..
ProSwimmer2006 [7:12 PM]: OIC i have aol pager too so my general friend can know my scn smiles but i am not gonna to tell u my scn unless u give me urs
LightinXParaDise [7:12 PM]: I dont want your screenname.
LightinXParaDise [7:13 PM]: the pager can be for everyone but only certain people knows cuz they are the ones that i want to talk to.
ProSwimmer2006 [7:13 PM]: oh well goodie cause i am a very busy girl cause i am the professional swimmer plus i am busy with track
LightinXParaDise [7:14 PM]: HUH? what is your point?
LightinXParaDise [7:14 PM]: i dont even care..
ProSwimmer2006 [7:14 PM]: excause me pls show ur role model cause iam more mature than u now
LightinXParaDise [7:15 PM]: WOW, i am so proud of you.
ProSwimmer2006 [7:15 PM]: whatever good for u i dont need u anyway, plus i am taken with one msd freshmen boy
LightinXParaDise [7:16 PM]: You dont make any senses, i dont even want you either, and if u have a boyfriend, good for you.. i dont even care.. enjoy your boyfriend and pager and everything, including swimming lessons.
ProSwimmer2006 [7:17 PM]: whatever so are u saying that i dont make an sense wow even i am in honor class
LightinXParaDise [7:17 PM]: Honor class, good for you.. i dont even care.
LightinXParaDise [7:17 PM]: Why should i anyway?
ProSwimmer2006 [7:18 PM]: wowie hey i am on my lifeguard right now so i got back to my work right now so see ya
LightinXParaDise [7:18 PM]: You dont make senses at all and you are saying that you are in honor class. it s really hilarious..
Auto response from ProSwimmer2006 [7:18 PM]: yo everyone do not distrubing me cause i am lifeguard right now til i dunno and i am eating PIZZA hmmmm yummmmie
LightinXParaDise [7:19 PM]: sure enjoy saving people s lives, uh like u'll save any.. um Pizza.. my cousin s a lifeguard.. the rules are.. lifeguards arent supposed to eat anything starchy otherwise they ll have their stomach tighten up when they save people, ah what a dweeb lifeguard..

Mon, 15 Apr 2002 02:57:07 GMT

Profile for: GCgAlZiE8
Occupation: I was in a rush, doing many things at the same time with problems of my own running through my head. And then I reached into
Personal Quote: my pocket and pulled out this red balloon a friend had given me and then I smiled.
Sometimes the simpliest gesture can mean the most.

Profile for: LightinXParaDise

Personal Quote: Lot of problems were running constantly inside my mind just til then, i checked a friend's profile and i smiled.

Sun, 14 Apr 2002 04:09:35 GMT

Life IS weird.

How cld she say "I offically lost him and cannot trust him anymore." If she did one thing that she was guilty for repeating something that she wasnt supposed to. And i still do trust her.

Life IS stupid..

As the usual.

Sat, 13 Apr 2002 01:14:12 GMT

Things between tabitha and i r much better.. There was a day when we thought everything was completely perfect, but it was like a great slap in the face. There were some rocks front of us. "True lovers dont run smoothly."- William Shakespeare.

It s much better now

::looks up:: She is SO abOve me.